We have one more day to go before we're actually in 2009. We're back to basic, back to square one.. Yep, your siblings going back to school, your parents starts getting busy, getting back to tight classes schedules. Our activities that would never going to stop..

My brother's PMR result will be coming out this morning.. He said he was nervous of getting to know his result. He's a bright student, and he ain't just bright, he's damn bright.. I would not think that he would have any problem at all.. Mom actually keeping her silence when she heard my brother complaining about how nervous he is, and he went to bed early tonight.. Probably trying to get his emotional rush to cool down a bit..

It actually reminds me a lot when I was still in secondary.. I wasn't really paying attention to my studies, I would say I fool around a lot when I was in that age.. I was in my first year in secondary and I already got my own 'pack'. I couldn't help it though, it was tremendously funny if I came to think of it.. I was awfully stupid, foolish... it'll be a long list, you name it! Plus, with all he hormone changes.. oh, it was all crazy when you're actually at the peak of the school and trying to get a hook on a girl.. hahaha! It was all really funny..

But, in the end, all of those things wasn't really matter anyway.. It is what you have in hand that proves who you are to people around you. People might ditch you just because you failed to prove something to others, and to yourself.. You have a lot friends then, but it ends up to be nothing. Secondary school have been a bad memories for me. All I really care was an attention.. you were suppose to be smart, however you acted up a little and it ruined everything..especially how people may look at you..! I get that all the time when I was back then...

That memories always reminds me to get a real life.. and I only living half of it. There aren't nothing much right now..but at least someone out there is still supporting me.. :) I need to thank her for that..she has always been nice to me.

The cousins were still talking about my relationship, and were asking a lot about the girlfriend.. most of it weren't really interesting to talk with, I just start mouthing them off when they're asking prejudicially. It was one damn irritating conversation with them.. They just think that they're already good enough with their relationship just because they are proud to bring their boyfriend/girlfriend for the family gathering.. so what? What do you proud of with having a partner from your own town? I have one wonderful and beautiful lady out there waiting for me to fetch her.. and she ain't an ordinaries like yours! Their questions doesn't really hurt my feelings, it was just their perceptions towards MY RELATIONSHIP, it is a humongous taboo for me.. I'll start mouthing them off all day if I have to..! Get a life folks..mind your own business and don't look for me to say sorry when your relationship don't work out.. fucks!

Geez..this booze's giving me a kick.. haha~! Well, I better stop now before I made a blue and black 'paintings' on their faces.. haha! ;p

The Christmas had just passed few days back.. it was all fun and I was excited about that like a 5 years old! Although there were still things that keeps on bothering me, it never stops me from doing things I am happy doing with..harhar~!

We did an open house on the 26th of December. It starts at 1 PM and ends at 3 AM the next morning.. I was enjoying the charcoal-roasted lamb, the marinate was excellent and taste was awesomely unforgettable! Plus..the meat was smoked after the roasting took place..which means, it was fully roasted! Inside out..well done! Everyone was enjoying the lamb as well..that was a perfect evening to end with..

I had a conversation with the girlfriend..a short one..but enough for me to be happy with, although there are parts that made me sad a bit and that might upset her as well.. I was really worried that I might be a burden to her.. I hope I am not a burden to you dear..

Well..after the conversation, I was really fired up, fueled in with burning spirit. It was the thing she said that made me stronger everyday.. Even though, she's far far far away from me..but the words that came out from her mouth feels like she's right beside me. It kept me standing tall and strong.. I really thank her for that! I finally made up my mind about things that are important in life, to work on your path and start building dreams come true..

People..you could never know how important she is to me! ;)

It's Christmas time.. every each and one of us is busy with anything, anything at all that has to do with Christmas! Churches, parties and visiting to friends' and relatives'..

Trees are already in place and lights are all set. Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. This very house is open for guests. Friends, families, colleagues and even somebody you don't even know. It was merely to be called a day as things haven't done accordingly, just yet..

I made few phone calls to some of my friends and I called my dearest girlfriend whom is far far away from here.. Excitedly calling her which ends with nothing much to say..haha.. I have a lot to talk about when I was dialing her number, but I ended up having my tongue caught up between my mouth.. I feel sorry for her, I hope she wouldn't mind.. I love you though..hihi~!

I haven't taken any cool photos yet for this Christmas.. There's a lot actually, but I'm really busy doing things in preparation for the Christmas gathering.. Mommy was busy as well, so as my aunts and same goes to my uncles. Everyone has their own things to do, while me, I have plenty than they do! Daddy is not around, he might as well busy for Christmas at the other end.. I prayed for him to be alright there..

Few pieces of papers are lying on my desk, few guests list were on when I was tidying up the desk. It really caught my attention as I only have one guest that will be coming by; Roney! I should really get a work on my networks. I have few other people to invite, but I finally realized that I don't even have neither their contact numbers, nor their e-mail addresses.

I will be away after this Christmas parties and all passes by. I will be staying with mommy, accompany her at the field. I really hope that I can gain access to Internet, dial-up connection would be okay..

In the mean time.. I really got nothing to do right now.. the girlfriend might as well be sleeping at this hour.. ;p I should not be disturbing her..

Well.. Merry Christmas and have a very Happy New Year to everyone!

So..I am currently here now. The very ol'town of Sandakan. Nothing veru much special unless you like small town with greeneries around you. I'll spend a lot time with families here. There will be Xmas coming up this month, as well as the New Year's Eve. Everyone gathering at one place, it's a tradition of the family, de Guzman's family traditions. It's not easy to be in this family. :) I'm just kidding. Well, there will absolutely a lot to eat when it comes to festive seasons like this one. Hence, it is a very bad news for me. I need to watch my weight, I need to keep my BMI at normal, as in healthy.

Mommy have been talking and talking, asking and asking me whether I wanted to go to Switzerland. I haven't made up my mind yet, although I know if ever I decide to go there.. It's going to be a lot of things to be done; student visa, my passport, application forms needed to be filled in, fees to be paid. I decide not to think of that for a while now, it could ruin my holiday here. I will think about that later after December.

I will end up exactly on the map if decide to go. However, it will only be decided after Xmas and New Year's Eve. :) I'm going to take my time, having a vacation with my families first. Nins, you would definitely know this place.

At this moment, I started to miss her again. Yep, there would be no one else except her. I really misses her today. I wonder, how would she react if she reads about this. I know many things would happen, but I do not wish for the bad ones.

Enough said, I'm all out..! ;p

This one is extremely experimental. I would use my tripod but it will only slow me down.

 

This one right here was also an experimental. The trail-lights was a success but as you can see, other objects are blur which caused from camera shake and improper lens adjust. One thing that was obviously wrong, I didn't use my tripod.

 

There is no editing on this one. It's a matter of how you use your aperture and your shutter speed in addition of the lens zooming usage.

 

It applies to this one as well. I used my PC as a subject, now, lighting plays the most important role in the succession of this photo. Low shutter speed and  low value of aperture. Plus, the lens zooming.

These photos I uploaded are still in experimental. More photos will be uploaded at my DeviantArt account. Pay a visit to DeviantArt via this link.

Please comment and provide me ideas which I can post in the coming event. Thank you.

 

The temperature is now around 24 degree Celsius to 29 degree Celsius at Sandakan. The atmosphere is currently at 29.8 in and falling. Sandakan is now experiencing a 74% humidity as there are scattered T-storms. The wind is blowing from NNE at 9 mph and the expected sunset will be at 5.57 PM.

I am still overwhelmed by having my new camera now. I spent hours just getting the hang of it. It has all the same functions with any other DSLR, I spent time to do some settings that I commonly use and those which I will use in the future.. So, the next time my eyes catches something pleasant; I will have already buy me some time.. Congratulations to me!

Anyhow, I was all alone at home when I became extremely bored. I tried to make myself really busy while I was alone.. I took few photos, but it's worth temporary as I can see myself 'jailed'. I wanted to go out.. take some photos around, walk, touring.. I don't know, just anything at all so I won't feel bored.

I'm still hoping the best for my relationship, especially at this moment.. Well, sometimes I felt like I made a fool of myself..big time! But I can't lie myself..in fact, the more the days passes by, the more intense feeling I have towards her.. I wish she felt the same.. It might just look like that I am not serious or maybe I can't be trusted, it's either of it.. The fact that, I really care about her is undeniable. Everything over my end are true! I might be asking too much, I just want her to feel the same way. I'm tired of failures, tired of having to get to know somebody new, tired of being cheated, tired of feeling insecure.. I'm a real deal..it might sound ridiculous at some point, especially to long-distant relationship and in respond to the newly person. I AM SERIOUS..! I don't pull tricks, I'm not fooling around.. :)

On the other hand, I haven't eaten a thing, not even a grain of rice. I'll be busted if mommy knew about this. She might just going to split that camera into half..haha~!

Meanwhile, I'll keeping myself busy (or look like busy) while waiting. :) I'm going to eat something as well.

So I got my new camera today. Superb! However, I would like to make few major corrections:

1. It is not exactly the camera I wish to have. But, I'm still happy!

2. It is not the Sony D-SLR a350X, instead, it's Sony D-SLR a350K.

 

I was browsing all the cameras, when I noticed there is no available stock for a350X. The a350X comes with twin lens which the a350K don't have. Though it ends to be like that, their features are still the same. a350K is a 14.2 megapixel camera, and yes, with an AF Live View.

I'll unofficially will begin my photo blogging as well as my usual blogs. Most photos will be posted in my DeviantArt account; which you can visit it via this link.

That would be my Xmas present from mom!! Thanks mom..hehehe! ;p